33

" Now unto Him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us. Unto Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus throughout all ages, world without end. Amen"
   I think I'm going to make this verse my "go-to" verse for the next year.  I have to admit to being completely overwhelmed lately ( part or all of the reason I haven't blogged). Since Wyatt's birth it has just seemed like I can't recoup very well. Physically I'm still struggling  to feel "normal" again. Domestically speaking,...well I dont' even want to go there. Let's just say it hasn't happened. And homeschool is non existent. I'm going to sacrifice my pride and tell you I have gotten ONE day of math (only math) done in the last 3 months.
So I was discussing this with a close friend the other day... and feeling so discouraged, and the question we were asking ourselves is "How?" If this (life, homeschool, mothering kids) is something I'm supposed to do, how come I can't get it all done?
  And, yes, I know there are plenty of people with answers to that : schedules, get up earlier, go to bed earlier, be perfect, blah blah blah....but I need answers for ME. That I can realistically apply to my life.
  So all of that to say,....In reading this morning, I ran across this verse and it just spoke hope and encouragement to my heart. This verse and several of the ones before and after in Ephesians chapters 3 and 4.
  If the power that does all that is working in me then I need to tap into it more. My worst problem is in trying to figure it out on my own for way too long before I take it all to the Lord. You know that verse "Come unto me all ye that labor and are heavy laden and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn of me for I am meek and lowly in heart and ye shall find rest unto your souls." For years I 've taken that at face value....tell the Lord your burdens and He will make them easier...or something to that effect. But lately I've been really re-thinking my interpretation of that. What if it really means "Look at Me, your Lord and Master and see the meekness and lowliness of my heart and learn that for yourself, and then your SOUL will have rest." I know at least half of my burdens come from my own mental attitude, my perspective on whatever is happening at that moment. And if I'm feeling sorry for myself and all I have to deal with, etc, etc. my soul if not rested at all. At all. So I'm thinking maybe the Lord was maybe talking about me taking Him my expectations and, yes, the burdens I have to face daily, and asking Him to show me what my attitude should be for the day. And then do it again. And again. Every day.
 You would think at 33 years old that I would have already learned this lesson. Yeah, well, that's what life if for...to keep teaching us the things we should already know. True? Of course, true.
 Well, that is my meditations for this morning.
 Hoping and praying that maybe I'll learn something at 33 that I didn't know at 32.


P.S. My kids are doing great! Wyatt is growing like a weed as are all my sweet babies...even one who is 12 years old already! I'll try to post pics soon but my baby that is 2 just gave my camera a dirt bath and it hasn't recovered yet. =(  Love and hugs.