Friday, January 1, 2016

A new post for a new year

I've always said that New Year's Day is my favorite day of the year.
It's like a new notebook and a freshly sharpened pencil. A gift I haven't opened yet, full of potential. You know the quote from Anne of Green Gables "Tomorrow is always fresh, with no mistakes in it yet." That's a new year, on a way bigger scale.
 I have so many hopes for this year. Things I want to see accomplished. Goals for our homestead. Goals for the kids schooling. And definitely personal growth goals.
 However, I've been reminded many times over the last month ( or year for that matter) that our plans are not always God's plans. And while I know He does want us to plan for the future, we are still supposed to be open to His will leading us to places, (and through places) we weren't expecting to go.
 We are currently going through the bible study "Faith Crisis" by Ron Dunn in Sunday school. And every week has been so on target for what we were facing. And I don't know why it always surprises me to hear and see the Lord working, when I know He always IS! I'm usually just too hung up in my own plans to notice.
  So if I only could voice one goal for this year, it would be to notice more. 
To notice the good more than the bad. 
The kind more than the careless. 
The beauty more than ugly. 
The stars more than the mud. 
The smile more than the frown. 
The provision more than the need. 
The blessings. 
"They are new every morning. Great is Thy faithfulness O Lord!"

Happy New Year!!!

Thursday, December 3, 2015

In search of...

I lost the truck keys. Not misplaced. Lost.
As in... 90% of the 5 acres of woods we live in is underwater, muddy, or covered 6 inches in dead leaves.
And they might be outside somewhere.
Or the dog could have buried them.
That is, if my 3 yr old didn't hide them first.
Have you ever tried asking a 3 yr old where something is? You will end up with at least (if you're lucky) five, different, totally credible, stories that you are compelled to verify or disprove.
 Yeah. That kind of lost.
So you can sort of imagine how I've spent the last week. Everything inside the cabin has been taken apart, shaken, moved or cleaned. You would think with barely 600 sqr feet of living space you would run out of places to look pretty quick. If only.
Other things I may have also lost:
Sanity.
Self-respect.
Time.
Opportunities.
And temporarily...Perspective.
 In recent years I've gotten pretty good at just rolling with whatever happens, but I gotta be honest. This one thing really got me.  Cause I had a ton of stuff on "my" agenda. (Not unusual.) And I definitely had a plan. And so far my plan had been working great.

  •   Go to bible conference. Enjoy lots of fellowship. Come home.  Then go to Texas for cousin's wedding. Enjoy long awaited trip.  See lots of family. Come home. Cook like crazy and then spend Thanksgiving in Wiggins with more family. Enjoy lots of yummy food and more fellowship. Come home. Begin prep work for christmas building project (aka finishing boys and girls rooms). 

 Losing keys was not in that plan.

So now I'm in search of. Something. And yes, I overthink everything. I question and analyze and rehash. Every.Thing.  It actually annoys me that I do this sometimes. It would be much simpler mentally if, just once, something could happen and I would NOT attempt to find the deep hidden meaning behind it all. {sigh}
  Anyway, the keys are still lost, but hopefully tomorrow we will be up and running again. Living where we do, we had hoped to save some money by not having to call a locksmith all the way out here. So we ordered keys online. I guess tomorrow will tell if we are successful in that or not. I'll try to let you know how it turns out.
 Maybe The Lord wanted me to slow down. ( see, still looking for deeper meaning.) or maybe this was just one of those "trying of your faith worketh patience" things. If so I feel I'm pretty topped up on patience just now. 😊 Now for a little peace, hope and joy.
 Happy christmas prep to you all.

Monday, July 6, 2015

It's just a number.


 Today is my 36th birthday. I have already been texted and called and face booked and loved on with well wishes from sweet friends and family. Since the kids are insisting that I stay in my bedroom while they fix my "surprise", I have time on my hands and plenty of thoughts to keep me company.
     I read a quote some time ago, " I write because I don't know what I think until I read what I Say."
And I have found that to be true of myself  in some ways. Blogging helps me focus and clarify my thoughts. So I'm taking I-phone in hand and figuring just what I think about this day. This year. This life.
 One thing I am realizing is that your age is really just another number. It can define you or you can define it. I'd like to choose to be the definer this year.
 One of the biggest factors for me, and the thing that catches me off guard, is the realization of the passing of time. It's preciousness and it's fleeting nature. We all lost two very precious people in my grandparents this past year. They were anchors in ways I hadn't realized until they were gone. I also just said goodbye to my parents and younger sisters as we saw them on their way to their newest missionary adventure. Once again time seems almost mocking in its power. I find myself struggling to gain a foothold in uncharted territory.
 And why this seems so hard right now I don't know? Goodbyes are not new to us.
  The one thing that is certain, I do " ...know Whom I have believed and am persuaded that He is able to keep that which I have committed unto Him against that day. " I can't claim to understand. But  He desires us to trust Him, not necessarily to understand Him.
   As I write this, it all seems so much simpler than the actuality of it. The what-ifs hover at the edges of my mind. It has to be an hourly excercise of committing the future to a loving Lord.
    You know when you read a devotional or self help book, how it seems like the author has all the answers and you just wonder how they got to that point? Well, it's my belief that authors struggle to practice what they preach just as much as the rest of us do.   I know Meemaw was always speaking of what she was struggling with and or still learning until The Lord took her home at 84.
  It would seem that no matter your age, all of life is a crazy trust excercise. And you should never stop learning.

Friday, May 1, 2015

Showers and bugs

There's something special about showering with the moon bright above you and the silhouettes of trees standing guard over the night just beyond the edge of your little circle of light. There's magic in the contradictions of the hot steam rising all around you and the light breeze blowing over your head and around your feet. The music of crickets and frogs makes you almost forget about the spider spinning it's web in the corner and the million moths that are attracted to the lightbulb overhead. No matter how primitive it is, and the seeming inconvenience of have to walk down the path to the shower house, I still always feel sort of sorry for folks that don't get to experience this delicious freedom.

I tried and tried to get a picture of the moon through the trees tonight, but it just wouldn't take properly. I guess in the end it's something you have to experience.  A picture can't do it justice. Over and over I am amazed and humbled at all the ways God shows us His glory. From tiny insects that we couldn't live without (even if we wanted to) to the moon that controls our tides and and so much more.

  This past Monday we got to see all of the amazing ways God expresses Himself in nature when we took the kids to the Aquarium and then the Insectarium in New Orleans. Beauty and majesty and sometimes comedy and creatures that make us say, What??? All just prove that we don't know a fraction of what we think we do when it comes to God. The insectarium really blew me away. I've always loved nature and as a kid loved to catch frogs and lizards and dragonflies with the best of them. As an adult I still love nature, but I'm not such a huge fan of certain members of the bug club. Aka spiders, roaches, and the more creepy of the littlest creations. But I was reminded yet again... through seeing the different displays and hearing about the way all of these amazing little guys work together to keep our world balanced and healthy on a level we can't even comprehend.... How great is our God!

The earth is full of the goodness of the LORD!

Sunday, March 15, 2015

A Room With a View

We finally got our windows installed a little over a week ago, and it has been so enjoyable to see the outside world clearly again while still maintaining our warmth.
(Not that we needed warmth this week. haha)
 I know some of you have really been wanting to see some pics, and I'm afraid my only excuse for not posting sooner is I was just too lazy. It has been a very rainy, muddy week and all my energy and ambition looked about like my yard did. Therefore... not much got done that wasn't vital to existence.
 But today the sun is shining again, and since I have about 30 min of downtime before we have to leave for church again I thought I would share my "point of view". ;)
                                         Living Room before windows (All of them looked like this but this is the only one I remembered to take a pic of.)

                                        Living Room the night Ed installed them …I love the way the lights are        reflected in the glass.
                                         Living room daytime view
                                        My Sunny Kitchen! :)
                                           The dressing room/closet …didn't actually have an opening here before.
 Our yard since this week.                                            My Room! With a view
                     This is a panoramic of the loft, so it's a little skewed but we will put a window in here too.
                                    The new quilt on my bed. Yeah, the pillows will be getting a facelift.
                                        A gorgeous and rare luna moth we found one night!

                              Well, my time is up. Gotta run. Hope you enjoyed the view! ;)